The Incredible Arghness

Recently another abyss of human behaviour has opened up in front of us, and it’s not pleasant to look at. I have only vaguely hinted at some problems we had about a year ago with certain people (which included the joyous event of someone putting a rootkit on my old computer and us getting the blame for what was done with that, which was more than a little shocking and absurd), but now it turns out that when that whole situation should’ve finally been put to rest, it in fact continued festering, and people have been spreading the most insane rumours about me and Verena. So, yeah, apparently we’re criminals who live in a three-way sex commune. (This is not a joke.)

Now, the sickening part of all this is not that people are saying these things. There’s a reason that I got so tired of the theatre group we were part of: the endless backstabbing and rumourmongering are nothing new, and we had to contend with that a great deal when doing our last show. What sickens me, what really sickens me, is that a number of people who should quite simply know better apparently do not. Not any close friends, thankfully – all of those think this is about as absurd as it gets – but nevertheless people that we have known for years, people that we have at times gone out of way to help or to support, both personally and in terms of the theatre. People who should know us well enough to know that this is all insane. (Though, frankly, these rumours have reached such a level of weirdness that I can’t help but think that anyone should see they’re insane.)

I’ve always believed that most people are essentially good, and more clever than they are given credit for. Sometimes I doubt the latter.


  1. Wolfgang DelaSangre

    It’s reasons like this why I believe Romans 3:12: “All have turned away, they have together become worthless; there is no one who does good, not even one.” (‘Course, I also believe the stuff about Jesus, so that’s slightly comforting.)

    I also quit believing that people had the potential to be at least as clever as I around 1st Grade. Heck, my own mother falls short sometimes, even on things she should have no problem understanding. Or remembering.

    People are backstabbing mongrels and most will break your heart at some point, Jonas. I wish you didn’t have to go through any of this, and I’ll pray that it all ends for you soon so you won’t have to worry about it again.

    If I may offer one last bit of Biblical wisdom (and I hope you don’t feel this is something to forgive), Revelations 22:11 is a nice verse to apply here: “Let him who does wrong continue to do wrong; let him who is vile continue to be vile; let him who does right continue to do right; and let him who is holy continue to be holy.”

    Keep doing what you’re doing, Jonas. If these people want to act like that, let ’em.

  2. Wolfgang DelaSangre

    Uh… heh. Didn’t mean to come across as arrogant or self-righteous in that first paragraph, in case I did. That’s the LAST thing I want. I fit into that verse too. Heck, I think I could challenge Paul for “World’s Worst Sinner,” and have a fighting chance at winning. Just saying, I have no more faith in humanity than I do in myself to eat on a regular basis (college student).

  3. I understand what you mean. But if humanity is worthless, what is the point of fighting? What is the point of trying to change anything?

    Without some faith in humanity, there is no hope at all. In fact, isn’t it sometimes this fashionable misanthropy that allows people to justify their own behaviour? Isn’t it this kind of thinking that allows malicious rumours and outright stupidity to spread so easily?

    I don’t know. Maybe you just fight the good fight and assume that there are enough people out there who matter? As long as you don’t give up…

  4. Wolfgang DelaSangre

    I don’t believe humanity is beyond saving. The lost causes are the only ones worth fighting for. That’s one of the philosophies that I live by.

    Humanity is a lost cause. But I’m a Christian. So another philosophy I try to live by (even though I fail more often than I should) is in Romans 5:8. “But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”

    While we were still sinners. Worthless pieces of trash that deserve to be burned in the furnace, and God seeks to salvage us.

    It’s kind of like if I found a broken, rusty toaster in a trash can. I can take it home, clean it up, fix it so that it works, and it’d make great toast. But I’m not gonna put any faith in its toast-making abilities until after I’ve fixed it.

    Like I said, I don’t believe the toaster is beyond fixing. It’s just that some toasters don’t want to be fixed. If that’s the case, then let them stay where they are and hope they change their mind before the garbage truck comes.

    Hmm… I’m gonna have to save that to a Notepad file and show it to some people.

  5. TJF588

    The verse of letting people continue to be what they are being is a good one. Jonas, for you, it seems that you should just keep to being who the ones that don’t buy the rumors see, so that maybe those who are misled will pick up on your true self/selves and snap to sensibility.

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