Links! 28/11/2013

Games, cats and communism. What else could you expect from this blog?

  • Ossuary is a new commercial game by Gregory Avery-Weir, creator of Looming and indie classic The Majesty of Colors. I wonder, do game critics nowadays even remember how big games like The Majesty of Colors were? Do they remember how for a while, Flash games were a space for genuine creativity that you could actually make a living from? Or is that all gone now, small-time stuff compared to Minecraft and the other Great Indie Hits? I hope not.
  • Exiting the Vampire Castle. “The Vampires’ Castle specialises in propagating guilt. It is driven by a priest’s desire to excommunicate and condemn, an academic-pedant’s desire to be the first to be seen to spot a mistake, and a hipster’s desire to be one of the in-crowd. The danger in attacking the Vampires’ Castle is that it can look as if – and it will do everything it can to reinforce this thought – that one is also attacking the struggles against racism, sexism, heterosexism. But, far from being the only legitimate expression of such struggles, the Vampires’ Castle is best understood as a bourgeois-liberal perversion and appropriation of the energy of these movements. The Vampires’ Castle was born the moment when the struggle not to be defined by identitarian categories became the quest to have ‘identities’ recognised by a bourgeois big Other.”
  • WHO Fail: Claim that 50% of new Greek HIV infections self-inflicted for benefits totally false. In case you see anyone still spreading this story, give them this link.
  • OECD report: US life expectancy below international average. “Although the US spends more by far on health care than any other country—$8,500 per capita, compared to an OECD average of $3,322—this has not translated into improved life expectancy gains. The US also has a higher than average GDP per capita, but still falls short of the majority of its OECD peers when it comes to life expectancy—a key indicator of quality of life.” Because universal healthcare works, and insane capitalist chaos healthcare doesn’t. (The report itself: Health at a Glance 2013.)
  • World’s Luckiest Cat Runs Out of Luck. “I found Muppet the night of January 7th, 1996 as I was walking home from midtown Manhattan to my apartment on West 109th Street through the third-worst blizzard in New York City history. I was on Central Park West around 103rd Street when he appeared from between the garbage cans outside the front door of a building facing the park. He looked almost full grown, was incredibly friendly and didn’t have a collar or any other sign of belonging to people. And the snow was falling so thickly. I couldn’t help picking him up and taking him with me; what I remember is that he didn’t struggle at all, he just somehow accepted that I had his best interests at heart.”
  • Music of the Day: The Songs of Distant Earth.

The Trouble With Robots

The Trouble With Robots

I got The Trouble With Robots from the sadly-neglected Bundle in a Box. I’m not entirely sure whether I’d heard of this game before; it’s possible, as I tend to only briefly glance at game-related news most of the time, but it doesn’t appear to have been a huge hit. Which is a shame, because it’s quite good. It doesn’t tick any of the boxes games are supposed to tick these days (innovative, social, procedurally generated, free to play, etc.) but it does tick several that are far more important to me (solid, well-written, well-designed, charming). It’s a game that knows very precisely what it wants to do and does that very well.

The Trouble With Robots is a card-based strategy game about leading an army of fantasy creatures against an army of extremely bureaucratic robot invaders who want to turn their world into a capitalist paradise. The gameplay is accessible and enjoyable without sacrificing strategy; you do have to think about which cards to pick and how to deploy them. The cartoon graphics are lovely, with real attention to detail. The music is catchy and adds to the sense of fun that prevails throughout. And the writing is genuinely witty; I smiled and chuckled throughout, which is a lot more than most games ever manage to get out of me.

I used the word “solid” to describe this game, and I mean more by that than just “it’s not bad.” I mean that the individual bits are fitted together in a way that leaves few cracks. It’s a very confident, clear design. I think that kind of solidity is something a lot of games are missing these days. Even otherwise good games.

There’s also something very enjoyable about how the story and the gameplay interact. Structurally, it’s the simplest thing in the world. The gameplay doesn’t change the words and the words don’t change the gameplay. But they enrich one another, so that the final result is more than the sum of its parts. The graphics and the music contribute to that, too – all these elements work together to produce a very specific flavour, and that’s ultimately what makes the game memorable.

Which makes me think that all these discussions about the role of story in games end up fetishizing technological solutions and miss the most important point: putting good words in the right places.

Inevitably, there are things I’d do differently. The enemies with long-distance attacks are vastly overpowered, small tweaks to the speed of magic recovery and cards per level might make the game less frustrating in some cases, and some of the optional challenges are just insanely hard. But, precisely because the game is so solid, these feel more like theoretical disagreements I have with its designer than like flaws. The game didn’t try to achieve something and failed, it just achieved something that’s slightly different from what I’d prefer. Even when the game pisses me off, I’m not particularly bitter about it. That’s a very good thing.

Time to do something about the robots that have invaded our society, hmm? I’ll be with the dwarves, they like my beard.

Statement of Principles

I have tried, for some time now, to avoid spending my time responding to slander. To a large degree I felt, and continue to feel, that anyone who actually reads what I’ve written or engages with any of the art I’ve produced, will realize that such accusations are absurd; doubly so because my work has, if anything, been noted for its dedication to principles of equality. I know most of you see the claims made against me as the laughable attempts at smearing someone that they are.

However, the truth is that these individuals have considerably more power and attention than I do, and as such their slander may come to define the impression that many people have of me, particularly in the field of computer games. Given especially that these people are associated with non-mainstream gaming, as am I, this can pose a serious threat to my ability to continue making games and reach a friendly audience.

So, for the purpose of clarity, I would like to state some things about how I approach the world.

First, the basics:

  • I believe all human beings deserve protection from harm.
  • I believe all human beings deserve shelter.
  • I believe all human beings deserve nourishment.
  • I believe all human beings deserve access to the highest standard of medical care available to our species.
  • I believe all human beings deserve an education.
  • I believe all human beings deserve freedom of speech.
  • I believe all human beings deserve freedom of religion, so long as their religion does not infringe on the rights of others.
  • I believe all human beings deserve access to art and entertainment.
  • I believe all human beings have the right to be recognized as individuals, irrespective of various characteristics.
  • I believe all human beings have the right to love whoever they love.
  • I believe all human beings have the right to live their lives as they see fit, as long as they do not harm others.
  • I believe the economic and political system we live in is required to provide these things, or be considered inadequate.
  • I believe we are technologically capable of providing all of the above without all that much effort.

Now, about the current (highly inadequate) system:

  • I believe that our economic system defines the totality of our social relations. Not just in capitalism, but always.
  • I believe that social antagonisms are rooted in economic inequality and serve to reinforce systems of oppression.
  • I believe that we are on the brink of global social, economic and ecological collapse.
  • I believe that meaningful change can only occur through a democratic mass movement aimed at radically altering the fundamental principles by which our economy is organized.
  • I do not believe that this change can occur through creating “a better capitalism” and other similar constructs promoted by liberal (progressive capitalist) groups.

However, contrary to accusations, I also believe that:

  • Racism is a very real problem.
  • Sexism is a very real problem.
  • Many other forms of discrimination are also a problem.

The difference between the point of view of socialists like myself and that of “social justice activists” and related identitarian groups is that:

  • I believe that economic injustice (class, not classism) is not only the problem faced by the majority of humans today (the 99%, to use a modern term) but also the problem that underlies all the others.
  • I don’t believe social antagonisms can be eradicated without eradicating economic injustice.
  • I believe that attempts to eradicate social antagonisms without eradicating the underlying systems of economic injustice ultimately serve to reinforce the system of oppression by integrating a small section of oppressed social groups into capitalism while maintaining divisions between the oppressed (the majority of every population).
  • I believe that organizing around various concepts of identity is counter-productive, as it reinforces the divisions between people with the same interests.
  • I believe that many of the problems that appear as related to a particular form of discrimination are actually fundamentally economic (see the debate about identity and disability).
  • I don’t believe that guilt is a political emotion.
  • I don’t believe in ideological purity or in utopia; the point is to create a better system, one that minimizes suffering and promotes human potential, not to “get along” or to perfect human society/nature.
  • I believe that the fight is not between the oppressed and society but between society (all of us) and the system.
  • I believe that organizing around objective material conditions is the only way to build a genuine mass movement.

This perspective is strongly influenced by history:

  • I believe there is an obvious connection between the present financial crisis and the rise of far-right politics, the media propaganda against immigrants and the poor, and the general xenophobia promoted by the establishment.
  • I believe an analysis of previous crises of a similar nature in the past irrefutably demonstrates the role played by ideologies of division in maintaining the existing order.
  • I believe the history of nationalism in Europe, not only in the two World Wars but also in the various movements of national liberation, shows how even an identity constructed against a backdrop of oppression will destroy diversity and allow the system to perpetuate itself with a slightly different face.
  • I believe it is important to remember that some of the most radical changes in women’s rights and gay rights were accomplished by the early (non-Stalinist) Soviet Union.
  • I believe it is extremely necessary to examine and learn from world history, to avoid a perspective built entirely along the social divisions of one particular time and place. (On the internet this usually comes down to a US-centric or eurocentric perspective, though similar forms of self-centered thinking are far from exclusive to those parts of the world.)

One thing that this group of people finds particularly appalling is that I do not accept their terminology:

  • I do not believe that “privilege” is a helpful term or one that accurately describes the inequality that exists in our society.
  • I believe the privilege discourse is essentially a form of victim-blaming, in which one group of victims is elevated to being more deserving of equality than the other.
  • I do not believe in a determinist understanding of social origin in which all people from one category are inherently sexist or racist.
  • I believe in rights, not privileges. Not being harmed is not a privilege, it is a right. If one person is harmed and another is not, the blame should go to the one causing the harm.
  • I do not believe that racism comes down to a simplistic black-white dichotomy.
  • I especially do not believe that such a dichotomy can be applied to countries that are historically unrelated to the trans-Atlantic slave trade and/or colonialism and thus have no conception of “whiteness” to begin with.
  • I do not believe that “patriarchy” is a useful term (except in its very specific original meaning) and that sexism should be understood as the enforcement of gender stereotypes, not “male privilege”.
  • I believe that sexism has historically oppressed men and women equally, by forcing both to live their lives in highly circumscribed ways, subjecting women to servitude at home and men to servitude both at work and in the battlefield. To ignore either side of the equation is to ignore the suffering of billions.

Essentially:

  • I believe the most urgent need of our time is to change the economic system we live in, before the inevitable crises produced by the current one annihilate us.
  • I believe sexism and racism can only be fought by deconstructing the fictional borders that fuel them, and that uniting people in the fight for better material conditions is actually the best, possibly the only, way of destroying the arbitrary divisions that have socially enslaved every member of this species for so long.
  • I also believe that attacking sexism, racism and other forms of discrimination at every opportunity (as false divisions, not via the guilt-based privilege discourse) is essential to building a mass movement; this interlocks with the point above.
  • In other words, I am calling for a internationalist and humanist approach to the fight for equality.

It should also be noted, however, that:

  • I could be wrong.
  • You could be wrong.
  • Being in error is not a sin.
  • Disagreement is not a sign of moral degeneration.
  • It is extremely destructive to claim that all those who oppose one’s methods or analyses oppose the very notion of equality or justice.

This is all very abstract, as one would expect from a summary. But you will find that wherever I have argued in favour of these ideas, I have provided detailed arguments for my position, and I have written many long and thorough explanations of individual points on this list, drawing on a global tradition of thought that includes people of all genders, sexes, sexual preferences, classes, colours, and so on.

To be entirely clear, I do not object to people thinking that I am wrong; I do object to the notion that these principles mean I am a sexist, a racist, a “manarchist” or any other such thing. I also object to attacks on my moral character (such as calling me a “creeper”) on the basis of these principles. If you dislike me because I once criticized an article written by one of your friends, fine, but do not pretend it is anything other than a petty personal vendetta. If you simply disagree with my positions, that’s fine too – either ignore me or talk to me. You’re not required to engage in debate, but responding to disagreement with slander is rather low.

The joy of humanity

We’ve had some interesting conversations about the future of humanity and the limits of population growth on this blog in the past, and though I’ve become a little more cautious on the issue than I used to be, this video contains some really interesting thoughts that are worth considering. Optimism about the future of our species is something that too many supposedly radical movements are lacking these days.

The Fifth Estate

I wasn’t going to do another political post straight away, but this is too good not to post. Sums up everything that is wrong with that facile propaganda piece (from the masterful director of The Twilight Saga: Breaking Prawn).

Identity and Disability

I’ve previously expressed the danger that I see in terms like “differently abled” – or rather in those people who make it a priority to change how we speak about disability instead of changing how we deal with it in economic and political terms. You could sum up the core of my argument like this:

  1. By emphasising the ability to work, we are assigning value to human beings in terms of their usefulness to capital, not in terms of their inherent rights.
  2. By depicting disability as an identity, we are obscuring the fact that disability entails real, physical problems that disabled people cannot cope with without help.

Disabilities are called disabilities because they disable you – because they are problems. Redefining the problem as a purely social one, i.e. insufficient integration into the capitalist model, buries the actual problems under a thick layer of euphemistic language and moralistic outrage, which suits those who would like to change the distribution of wealth in society just fine.

I actually recently experienced a rather excellent example of that myself. You see, I have a disability. It’s a very common one, and yet one which impacts my quality of life in significant ways: I can’t see well. I cannot recognize faces at a distance, let alone read. The world is a blur to me. Glasses help, of course, but they come with their own disadvantages, like distortions due to dirt, limited peripheral vision, and headaches. And it’s getting worse; I recently went to an ophthalmologist and she told me that, as I had feared, my eyesight has deteriorated quite a bit in the last five years.

What the world looks like to me, pretty much.

So I needed new glasses.

Germany used to have an excellent healthcare system, the kind that most Americans don’t seem to realize is possible. Like almost all the achievements of Capitalism Lite (Social Democracy), it is now being dismantled as part of the vast transfer of wealth from public to private hands that is taking place all over the West, but it’s still quite a lot better than what people in the United States have to deal with. My visit to the ophthalmologist was entirely free, for example, apart from the monthly fees I pay (which won’t go up because of it). So I was somewhat surprised to find that the German healthcare system does not pay for glasses. Glasses which I need in order to be able to function properly in society. Glasses which can be quite expensive, even though they generally last for years.

I didn’t expect them to pay for the super-fancy glasses, mind you, just the basic types. But no.

How do German healthcare companies explain this failure to do what they’re legally supposed to? You guessed it: identity.

Yes, echoing the language of identity politics, they successfully argued that being visually impaired is not a disability, but just something you are, like ginger or black or Belgian. A deformity in your eyeballs is just part of your unique personality, you wonderful blurry little snowflake you! To suggest that maybe being unable to see properly is a problem… why, that’s just ableist! And who gets to define what “properly” means, anyway? Reality is just perception, and if your perceptions are different, then that’s something to be celebrated. The fact that your head hurts and you can’t tell which bus is coming or who’s waving at you or what’s happening in the movie – that’s just part of your unique contribution to our diverse, non-ophthalmotypical society!

(Excuse my sarcasm. I know it is nowhere near intense enough.)

In my case, having to pay for the luxury of being able to recognize shapes is a burden that I can still bear, though it’s going to put a definite dent in our financial plans, especially since I also need to buy a new PC. And even if I couldn’t afford a new pair of glasses, I would still be able to survive. But my disability is completely trivial when compared to those of other people – what happens when their problems are declared null and void? What happens when a person with multiple sclerosis or cerebral palsy or Parkinson’s is no longer considered disabled? If you think that’s fantasy, I have one word for you: Atos.

In the UK, so-called “work capability assessments” are carried out by a private company called Atos, which is part of one of those enormous multinational corporations that artists are repeatedly told not to portray as monstrous. They have done all of the above, and thanks to them, more than ten thousand people have died in the last few years after losing their welfare benefits. At one point, they even classified a man as “fit for work” who was in a coma. If you put that in a movie, critics would accuse you of heavy-handed satire and writing yet another clichéd evil corporation.

And is it a coincidence that the Disability Living Allowance is to be replaced by the Personal Independence Payment? Every real problem is buried in layers of euphemistic “positive” language. (Much like austerity is being sold as “shock therapy” rather than just, you know, shock. Next thing stabbing will be called Spontaneous Surgery.) As for the other side of the coin, anyone who doesn’t enthusiastically embrace the new dogma of independence – like someone who is severely disabled and couldn’t work even if there were jobs, which there aren’t – must logically be the exact opposite: lazy, dependent, a drain on society. A benefits scrounger.

Identity, meanwhile, plays into it like this:

I'm definitely not linking to those bastards.

Identitarians argue that the main issues are empathy and representation. If only people knew how disabled people feel. If only they stopped using mean words about disabled people. If only everyone would step aside and let disabled people speak for themselves. But Stephen Duckworth is most definitely disabled. By identitarian logic, to attack him is to be ableist. It is silencing. It is going against the fact that Mr. Duckworth knows a lot more about what it means to be disabled than you do, so how dare you question his identity?

And what about David Cameron? He had a disabled child, Ivan, who was born with Ohtahara syndrome and died at the age of six. Do you think he has no empathy for disabled people? Do you think he doesn’t know what it means to grieve about what your child is going through? Check your privilege!

Now, some may argue that intersectionality* provides some kind of answer here, as this is “also” a class issue. But the truth is that the principles of identity politics make it impossible to respond as soon as anyone invokes identity. All that Stephen Duckworth has to do is say “I’m disabled and I know better, so if you disagree, you are oppressing me” and the discussion is over. Unless you’re a massive hypocrite and only stick to the principles when it’s convenient, of course.

As for “stepping aside and letting disabled people speak for themselves” – well, that would be Mr. Duckworth again. Oh, it’s not that all disabled people think like him. In fact, in my experience most (but clearly not all) disabled people are horrified by Atos. But if you build your politics around identity, you forget that people within one identity never all have common material interests, and capitalism is absolutely brilliant at adapting itself to social changes – so it will simply pick those people from that identity who have shared interests with the capitalist class, and give them all the media attention they could possibly want, meanwhile using the very logic that produced these individuals to silence the opposition. Stepping aside isn’t giving disabled people a voice, it’s running away from responsibility and analysis. Nobody can win this fight on their own.

But is there a way out? Of course there is: solidarity. Not stepping back or stepping in front of disabled people, but standing next to them, as part of one movement against the material conditions that keep all of us as slaves of the systems that are supposed to serve us. But solidarity requires a choice that breaks with identity. It means excluding Mr. Duckworth and his associates, no matter what they say about their unique insights. It means saying that, though they are suffering in a way you are not, they are wrong about what needs to be done. It means picking a side.

Most disturbing perhaps has been capitalism’s ability to, apparently, accept, take over and use for its own ends the slogans of the disability movement. So the long argument against the ‘medical model’ of disability is taken over by the giant insurance and health companies – the likes of Unum and ATOS – and their clients in the state, and used in their hands to promote a ‘social-psychobiological’ model of ill health and disability whose founding principles are that doctors are too expensive, not to be trusted, and replaceable with suitable computer programs; and that claimants are always lying. In fact the point of the medical model was that it identified an, often near total, power imbalance between doctor and patient (or inmate). To replace it with the power imbalance of an impersonal ATOS assessment is radically to pervert the intent of the original thinking.

In the same way the disability movement’s emphasis on disabled people’s creativity, and strength is turned against us by a parade of high-achieving disabled people – some of whom consent to be used in this way, many of whom do not – whose example is used to pour scorn on the rest of us. If we ask for independence, this is redefined as finding work – any work at all – with enforced penury as the only alternative. If we demand a voice we are given endless consultations whose outcome is always predetermined. Negative discrimination is outlawed – ineffectively – but it then turns out that what we needed was positive discrimination which is not on offer. We may apply for any unsuitable job we want but there can be no question of suitable jobs being created for us around our abilities.

So, in conclusion, we must not in any way ditch or weaken the social model but we need to sharpen its edge for the battles ahead. In those battles our main enemy, I suggest, will not be a diffuse prejudice or disablism – although we must continue the work of educating people away from such attitudes – but the capitalist state. The state it was that created our condition and the state it is that maintains us in artificial dependency, through the welfare system which is its primary means of disciplining us, through its shrinking ‘care’ provision with which it can control our daily activities, and through the rationed healthcare provision – no longer a National Health Service but private capital hiding under the capacious cloak of the state – under which we eke out our lives.

The enemy dictates the order of battle and we will need to use every opportunity to set the state against itself, through use of the law, though alliances with radical workers within the state and through relentless pressure on the political class who mediate between the state and the rest of society. We need to ally with any other victims of state oppression, such as non-disabled benefit claimants and ordinary workers. And we should be clear that the primary source of our oppression today, as before, is in fact the capitalist state in its welfare function.

– Richard Atkinson, Disability and the capitalist state

*I am somewhat conflicted about this term. I have almost exclusively seen it used by identitarians to justify fragmentation, navel-gazing and an opposition to any kind of genuine class analysis or radical organizing. I do think it partially describes something real about how various forms of prejudice interact, though I think it mostly misses how they are produced and what function they serve in capitalism. All in all, it is not a model that I find useful, but I acknowledge that in some cases it has been used to successfully describe certain dynamics. I hope we can agree that rejection of a model does not constitute approval of bigotry.

Not on Steam Sale

The Sea Will Claim Everything and a whole bunch of other indie games are on sale right here:

Not on Steam Sale

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The minimum amount off is 25%, but many games – including TSWCE – are even cheaper. A great opportunity to support some of the smaller indie developers and get some awesome games for relatively little money.

If you already own TSWCE, remember that you can also get a copy for your grandmother, cat and/or imaginary friend.

Consolidate

Urizen

I’d been meaning to write this for a while, before I got distracted by having to take care of some important business stuff. But this is a good opportunity to look back a little and talk about where we’re going.

This has been a strange year, with lots of highs and lows. I haven’t released a game, but I’ve worked on several, and made very significant progress towards being able to make some games that previously seemed beyond the reach of my extremely limited programming abilities.

The biggest problem has, of course, been health. All three of us – Jonas, Verena, and Cat – spent entirely too much of this year being sick in various alarming ways, not all of which I’ve mentioned here (because it would get tedious). We’ve had everything from infected nerves to bladder stones to vision loss to blistered fingers. None of it was fun, and all of it cost us a lot of money, time and nerves. Getting sick sucks, and I could do with at least a few years of being relatively healthy. At least no operations, brain-scans or injections for anyone in this family for a while, hmm?

I also got overly distracted by writing about politics, and especially identity politics. I don’t mean to say I regret writing anything that I did, only that the blog became too focused on that one extremely depressing topic. And I have to say that it’s taken me a great deal of effort not to constantly go back to that, to try and defend myself against slander, to try to explain that not agreeing with a certain political strategy/analysis doesn’t mean one is against equality and human rights. I’ve come to the decision that I need to trust people to know that I’ve never held any of the ridiculously bigoted opinions that I’ve been accused of holding simply because I don’t subscribe to one specific American liberal ideology. My work and my words should speak for themselves. If you’ve played The Sea Will Claim Everything and think that my transcultural cosmopolitanism means I’m opposed to people’s bodily autonomy… then nothing I say can change your mind, because “logic is bullshit” and dogma rules the day.

But it’s hard, you know? Hard not to talk about politics all the time when such horrific events are taking place worldwide. Hard not to get angry all the time when people are complacent about governments and militaries and corporations but ready to burn every sinner who speaks a forbidden word. And it unbalances not only the blog, but my life. Which, granted, is how it should be to some degree, or I’d be complacent myself. But even under the worst of circumstances, human beings have always tried to be more than their problems – and my circumstances are hardly the worst.

This is connected to another realization, which is that we’ve been spending too much time and thought on projects that are not directly creative. By this I mainly mean The Secret Gates and our constant thoughts about finally resurrecting our film review site, Commentarium. I had a long conversation with Ivo (who co-founded The Secret Gates) about this. Originally the site was going to be something completely different, which didn’t pan out for a number of reasons, and then we decided it might be fun to create the sort of literary review site that we felt the interet was missing. The origin of Commentarium was pretty much the same: Verena and I thought it would be fun, and we thought that there wasn’t really any site that represented our taste in movies. But the internet will eat your babies. Even websites that have the full attention of their creators, websites constantly promoted and full of brilliant content, struggle to find an audience nowadays. And the truth is that, unless we had a significant audience and thus a sense of satisfaction, sites which are primarily dedicated to talking about other people’s work aren’t quite worth it for us. Ivo already spends enough of his time on academic work; why do more on the internet? Verena barely manages to find any time for her writing; why spend so much energy on reviewing movies when she could be working on her novel? And the same goes for myself.

Not that I completely want to stop writing about these things. Not at all. I find it both enjoyable and useful to analyze the work of others. But I can do it right here, without having to worry about writing enough each week or making the reviews long enough or all the other nonsense that’s on your mind when you’re trying to create a popular site. Which leads us back to the politics: I always wanted this site to be about variety. I hate how fragmented everything has become, and long for cultural synthesis; you can see this reflected in how different my games are from each other while still sharing common themes, and you’ll be able to tell even more if I ever get some novels or short stories published. I hate the idea of genre. I hate that we have idiotic terms like “literary fiction” and “art game”. In a sense, I’ve tried to make my entire career all about breaking down barriers and refusing to be categorized. This site should reflect that.

In terms of games and stories, I’m also hoping that all the hard work I’ve done this year will start coming together. Ithaka will still take a while – I know I keep saying that, but it’ll be worth it in the end. I want it to be extraordinary, and you can’t accomplish that by rushing it. As the poem itself suggests, it’s better to take your time. And there will be other games in the meantime, both free and commercial. So don’t give up on me yet.

Another thing I’d like to do is to put out more Lands of Dream content. The reason I’m reluctant to do so is that I currently feel like the audience is still very small, especially for anything that’s not a game. I know that some people love the Oneiropolis Compendium, but at the moment I worry that I’m wasting ideas by publishing them online – ideas that could go into the Lands of Dream novel, Oneiropolis, itself. When I write it, which is still some time away. I’m not sure how to proceed with all this, but I’ll be thinking about it and I’ll be open to ideas. I would love the Lands of Dream website to thrive, even if I don’t make any money off it.

Finally, there’s something I may have to do that is going to change my day-to-day life in a significant way: get a(nother) job. An opportunity has presented itself which I am likely to take. It won’t eat up my whole week, but if it works out (no pun intended), it could make a tremendous difference to our financial situation. The Indiegogo financed Ithaka of the Clouds, you see, but it certainly didn’t finance our cat’s operation, and the extra income would be very useful, especially when it comes to promoting my work or being able to attend events. It’s scary, of course, and I’m genuinely frightened that it will impact my ability to create – but it could also be what finally pushes us to the point where we can realize those projects that have so far been impossible to tackle. Actually, I’ve decided I just can’t do it right now. I have too many projects that demand my attention, and while we need the money, it would be better to get that money by releasing something. I’ve been getting so much better at all this and we’re too close to success to give up now.

I want to take that step forward: towards the stories I’ve been wanting to tell, towards getting out of this depressing city, towards spending more time creating than worrying. I hope I can do that, and I hope you’ll be along for the ride.

Links! 20/09/2013

Salonique

Hi. I haven’t been updating much lately, mainly due to a) working really hard b) the continuing saga of Health Problems. I have some, Verena has some, and the cat has some too. It’s the kitty that’s really worrying us at the moment, since it’s barely been a month since her surgery and she has too much struvite in her urine again. We’re taking her to the vet about forty minutes from now, and I doubt I’ll be able to focus enough to write my long and interesting update before then.

Here are some interesting links, though. In utterly random order:

Edited to add what I just tweeted. Cat news: some medication needed, but not another operation. Phew. Let’s hope we can get her pH balanced.

Yay! Sort of.